In the past four weeks, I have stayed with friends. I have cried every day. I have felt lost and yet so loved. I have rented an apartment and been loaned a car. I have been given a new wardrobe of clothes for each member of my family. I have cleaned and organized three bedrooms, a kitchen and a livingroom. I have put in a change of address card. I have shopped in a food bank. I have met Christy Turlington and Ann Curry.
|Hubby and I with Ann Curry|
|Christy Turlington is the nicest supermodel you'll ever meet!|
I have seen my house and my foundation separately in the main section of major newspapers and on the news. I have been given gifts for my kids and housewares. I have been given love and support from friends, family, strangers and even people who were once, but were no longer friends. I have been humbled. I have woken up to new loud sounds. I have spent hours on the phone with FEMA and insurance companies. I waited on line for 6 hours for a $600 gift card from China Buddhists. I have taped a daytime television segment. I have seen old friends and new change my life for the better. I have sat in bleacher seats for the Thanksgiving Day parade. I have experienced the worst of nature's devastation and the best of humanity.
|Toni Senecal of Toni On New York - An angel to my family|
|The kids at the parade|
I have not gone home. I have not run a marathon after 4 months of training. I did not come back to a mess. Instead it was total devastation of my entire block and community.
This morning I woke up in a newly rented apartment on a new bed in a new room. Hopefully some day this will feel normal. Today is not that day. However, I will try to make it seem normal as I take my son to Sunday school and then go for a quick run. Tomorrow I will go back to work. I do not know what comes next, but I know I can't go home ever. Not even to a messy house.
Thanks again to all of you. I love your notes, gifts and your messages online. I read them over and over for strength each day.